I’m Not Always Peaceful, But I Am Always Listening
There’s this idea floating around that if you’re intuitive, you’re supposed to be calm all the time.
Zen. Still. Unbothered. Floating above it all like a monk in a candlelit room.
But I’m not always peaceful.
Not even close.
I have bad days.
I get overwhelmed.
I react. I overthink. I shut down.
Sometimes I get too quiet. Other times I speak too soon.
But none of that means I’m disconnected.
It just means I’m human.
And even in those messy, restless, not-so-elevated moments—I’m still listening.
That’s the part no one talks about.
You don’t have to be peaceful to be intuitive.
You don’t have to be perfect to receive truth.
You just have to be willing to stay aware—even when you’re tired, frustrated, or unsure.
Some of the deepest insights I’ve ever received didn’t come when I was meditating.
They came in the middle of messy conversations.
They came in traffic.
They came after I snapped at someone and immediately felt the regret rise up behind it.
That’s when I hear it most clearly.
The voice that says:
Slow down.
That’s not yours to carry.
This isn’t who you are.
It doesn’t punish.
It just gently redirects me—if I’m willing to hear it.
Intuition doesn’t wait for you to be calm.
It speaks through the noise.
Sometimes it shows up as an ache.
Sometimes as guilt.
Sometimes as a quiet truth underneath your defensiveness.
It doesn’t say, “You should’ve known better.”
It says, “You already knew… now come back.”
And that’s the real path—not never messing up.
But learning how to return faster, softer, and with more self-respect each time.
I used to think that being intuitive meant you’d eventually get to this place where everything feels good all the time.
But now I think it’s something else entirely.
It’s about being honest with yourself when it doesn’t.
It’s about catching yourself mid-pattern.
It’s about knowing when to stop talking, when to pause, when to breathe instead of react.
It’s about hearing what’s underneath your anger, your sadness, your silence.
And that kind of listening… it doesn’t come from being “above” emotion.
It comes from moving through it—without abandoning yourself on the way.
I’ve had moments where I wanted to shut it all down.
To stop feeling. To stop noticing.
To just be numb for a while.
But even in those moments, something in me kept the signal on.
Not because I was trying to be enlightened.
But because I couldn’t ignore what was true anymore.
And once you start living that way, you can’t go back.
You might still fall down.
You might still spiral.
But you won’t lie to yourself the way you used to.
Because once you’ve heard the voice beneath the noise… you recognize it.
And even when you’re not peaceful, you’re never really lost.
So if you’ve been trying to “get it together” before you let yourself feel…
If you’ve told yourself you’re too emotional, too reactive, too inconsistent to be intuitive…
You’re wrong.
Your truth isn’t hiding behind perfection.
It’s woven into every version of you.
Even the raw ones.
Even the messy ones.
You don’t have to wait for peace to begin listening.
Just begin.
Right where you are.
Right in the middle of it.
Right now.
You’ll hear it.
If you’re willing to.
And if you hear something stir—something simple, something soft...
Don’t dismiss it.
That’s where it starts.
That’s where it always starts.
Derek Wolf
If something in this spoke to you, there’s more waiting.
I write, interact, and teach more deeply over at www.L2Bintuitive.com—where we explore how to actually live what you feel.
There’s this idea floating around that if you’re intuitive, you’re supposed to be calm all the time.
Zen. Still. Unbothered. Floating above it all like a monk in a candlelit room.
But I’m not always peaceful.
Not even close.
I have bad days.
I get overwhelmed.
I react. I overthink. I shut down.
Sometimes I get too quiet. Other times I speak too soon.
But none of that means I’m disconnected.
It just means I’m human.
And even in those messy, restless, not-so-elevated moments—I’m still listening.
That’s the part no one talks about.
You don’t have to be peaceful to be intuitive.
You don’t have to be perfect to receive truth.
You just have to be willing to stay aware—even when you’re tired, frustrated, or unsure.
Some of the deepest insights I’ve ever received didn’t come when I was meditating.
They came in the middle of messy conversations.
They came in traffic.
They came after I snapped at someone and immediately felt the regret rise up behind it.
That’s when I hear it most clearly.
The voice that says:
Slow down.
That’s not yours to carry.
This isn’t who you are.
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It doesn’t scold.It doesn’t punish.
It just gently redirects me—if I’m willing to hear it.
Intuition doesn’t wait for you to be calm.
It speaks through the noise.
Sometimes it shows up as an ache.
Sometimes as guilt.
Sometimes as a quiet truth underneath your defensiveness.
It doesn’t say, “You should’ve known better.”
It says, “You already knew… now come back.”
And that’s the real path—not never messing up.
But learning how to return faster, softer, and with more self-respect each time.
I used to think that being intuitive meant you’d eventually get to this place where everything feels good all the time.
But now I think it’s something else entirely.
It’s about being honest with yourself when it doesn’t.
It’s about catching yourself mid-pattern.
It’s about knowing when to stop talking, when to pause, when to breathe instead of react.
It’s about hearing what’s underneath your anger, your sadness, your silence.
And that kind of listening… it doesn’t come from being “above” emotion.
It comes from moving through it—without abandoning yourself on the way.
I’ve had moments where I wanted to shut it all down.
To stop feeling. To stop noticing.
To just be numb for a while.
But even in those moments, something in me kept the signal on.
Not because I was trying to be enlightened.
But because I couldn’t ignore what was true anymore.
And once you start living that way, you can’t go back.
You might still fall down.
You might still spiral.
But you won’t lie to yourself the way you used to.
Because once you’ve heard the voice beneath the noise… you recognize it.
And even when you’re not peaceful, you’re never really lost.
So if you’ve been trying to “get it together” before you let yourself feel…
If you’ve told yourself you’re too emotional, too reactive, too inconsistent to be intuitive…
You’re wrong.
Your truth isn’t hiding behind perfection.
It’s woven into every version of you.
Even the raw ones.
Even the messy ones.
You don’t have to wait for peace to begin listening.
Just begin.
Right where you are.
Right in the middle of it.
Right now.
You’ll hear it.
If you’re willing to.
And if you hear something stir—something simple, something soft...
Don’t dismiss it.
That’s where it starts.
That’s where it always starts.
Derek Wolf
If something in this spoke to you, there’s more waiting.
I write, interact, and teach more deeply over at www.L2Bintuitive.com—where we explore how to actually live what you feel.
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