☕ Coffee and Quiet with Derek Wolf
Breathing Space into the Day
The car door stays closed for another moment. The lot is half empty, stretched wide under the glow of humming light poles. The late evening air hangs thick around her, the kind of heaviness that seems to settle after a long day. She keeps both hands on the steering wheel, fingers curved tight around the leather. Her knuckles look pale in the faded light. Her chest rises quick and shallow, as if the hours behind her are still pushing against her ribs.
The world outside her windshield feels too fast. The world inside her chest feels too tight. She lingers in that small space between motion and stillness, unwilling to open the door just yet. The quiet inside the car is not restful. It is the kind of quiet that arrives when the body has reached its edge and asks for something it cannot name.
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Her phone buzzes once from inside her bag. She makes no move toward it. She lets it fall back into silence. A breath catches at the top of her lungs. She notices the ache in her temples, the way her shoulders refuse to drop, the way the muscles at the base of her neck tremble with faint exhaustion. She could carry all of this straight inside. She could let the day pour into the evening the way water finds the lowest point. She knows that pattern well. But something deeper than her weariness rises and meets her. It asks for another way.
She leans her head back against the seat. The fabric is warm from the sun that touched it earlier. The warmth reminds her that the day held more than the difficult moments she is replaying. She closes her eyes and listens. Not to the noises outside the car. Not to the list still unfinished in her mind. She listens to the rhythm hiding underneath the tension. The subtle thud of her heartbeat. The breath she has not yet deepened. The quiet plea of her own spirit asking to be met before she moves forward.
In the faint hush of the parking lot, she brings her attention to her hands. They are still wrapped around the steering wheel, stiff with the kind of grip she holds when she is trying to get through rather than move with. She loosens her fingers one at a time. The release feels unfamiliar. Vulnerable. Necessary. Her palms open and rest gently against her legs. The shift is small, hardly visible, yet something inside her eases as if the smallest door has opened.
She breathes in through her nose, slow and careful. The breath stays high at first, thin and tight near the collarbones. She does not force it lower. She only notices. That is how Maria moves. Through noticing. Through presence. Through allowing the breath to soften the body instead of pushing the body to match the breath. She lingers in that first inhale until it ends on its own. Then she releases it, long and unhurried, letting it fall from her chest like a weight she no longer needs to hold.
A cool thread of air slips through the cracked window. It touches her cheek with the gentleness she has not offered herself all day. She turns her attention to that sensation and lets it settle her. The world outside does not quiet. Cars pass in steady rhythms. Voices drift from across the lot. Somewhere in the distance, a door closes with a dull thud. Life continues without slowing. Yet inside this car, something fragile begins to shift. She feels her breath return to her in a more honest way.
She takes another inhale. This one reaches deeper. Down to the bottom of her ribs. Down to the place where exhaustion has been hiding. When she releases the breath, her shoulders fall by a small but significant inch. She had not realized how high they had been held until now. Tension does not vanish all at once. It unravels in tiny strands. And these strands begin to loosen the moment she gives herself permission to pause.
Her thoughts try to rise again, to claim the space she is creating. They bring back the unfinished conversations, the difficult decision she postponed, the pressure she carried through every hour. She watches them come. She watches them gather. She does not follow them. She let herself follow them all day, and they led her into a place where she could not breathe. Now she chooses a different direction, one breath at a time.
She opens her eyes and looks through the windshield. The parking lot lights cast long shapes across the pavement. A faint reflection of herself looks back in the glass. There is something softer in her expression now. Something more aware. The breath she just took has changed the angle of her entire evening. She recognizes it as the beginning of a return. A return to her center, not by effort, but by presence.
Her chest expands again. The breath travels farther, reaching the space beneath her sternum. This is where she usually feels the first sign of overwhelm. A tightening. A quick pull inward. Tonight, that place feels different. Not open, but opening. The breath creates a small pocket of space inside her. Not enough to hold everything she carries, but enough to hold this moment without collapsing under it.
She thinks of how often she has moved from one demand to the next without stopping to feel the impact of any of them. She thinks of the way she has tried to outrun her own exhaustion, believing that momentum would save her from sinking. It never did. It only pulled her farther from the quiet she needed. In this small car, in a half empty parking lot, she finds the truth she has avoided all day. She cannot keep living from urgency. She cannot keep ignoring the signals her body sends.
She brings her hand to her chest, letting her fingertips rest lightly against her skin. The contact feels grounding. Honest. Human. Her breath meets her hand with a gentle lift. This simple connection reminds her that she is more than her responsibilities. She is a person who needs space to recover. A person who deserves moments of stillness. A person whose inner world matters as much as the demands she meets on the outside.
Another breath enters her body. It moves slowly, with intention. She lets it widen her ribs, soften her shoulders, and loosen the edges of her posture. She exhales and feels her whole being settle deeper into the seat. The day will not rewrite itself. The stress will not disappear in one pause. But she no longer expects it to. She only expects herself to meet this moment with care.
The phone in her bag vibrates again. This time she does not flinch. She does not rush to reach it. She allows it to be background sound. The world will ask for her when she steps outside this car. Right now, she is asking for herself. Another inhale. Deeper now. It carries a calm she recognizes. A calm that feels like returning home after drifting too far away.
She stays here for a few more breaths. Long, honest breaths. Each one creates another inch of space inside her. Each one restores a piece of her capacity. The tightness in her temples softens. The pressure around her ribs eases. She no longer feels chased by the hours behind her. She feels held by the moment she is in.
The evening waits outside her door. The light is shifting. The air is cooler. She knows she still needs to walk inside and face whatever the rest of the night holds. A light breeze slips through the crack in the door as she reaches for the handle, brushing across her arm with a soft reminder that the world is gentler than the day she carried.
She opens the door and steps into the evening. The air touches her skin with a gentleness she can finally feel. She moves with a slower stride. Not heavy. Not rushed. Present. The space she created inside the car moves with her, as if a pocket of calm is following each step.
The Truth Beneath
Stillness does not always arrive when the world grows quiet. It often arrives when you choose to pause long enough to feel your own breath again. A small moment of presence can loosen the tight places in your body and soften the weight you carry. The day may not change, yet your relationship to it does. When you let yourself breathe space into the moment, you create space inside yourself. And that space becomes strength you can return to again and again.
Stories written in the quiet hours.
Derek Wolf.
“The Truth Beneath” Links to add to the bottom of stories
Breathing Space into the Day
The car door stays closed for another moment. The lot is half empty, stretched wide under the glow of humming light poles. The late evening air hangs thick around her, the kind of heaviness that seems to settle after a long day. She keeps both hands on the steering wheel, fingers curved tight around the leather. Her knuckles look pale in the faded light. Her chest rises quick and shallow, as if the hours behind her are still pushing against her ribs.
The world outside her windshield feels too fast. The world inside her chest feels too tight. She lingers in that small space between motion and stillness, unwilling to open the door just yet. The quiet inside the car is not restful. It is the kind of quiet that arrives when the body has reached its edge and asks for something it cannot name.
If today isn’t the day, remember us when your moment opens.
Buy Me a Coffee
Her phone buzzes once from inside her bag. She makes no move toward it. She lets it fall back into silence. A breath catches at the top of her lungs. She notices the ache in her temples, the way her shoulders refuse to drop, the way the muscles at the base of her neck tremble with faint exhaustion. She could carry all of this straight inside. She could let the day pour into the evening the way water finds the lowest point. She knows that pattern well. But something deeper than her weariness rises and meets her. It asks for another way.
She leans her head back against the seat. The fabric is warm from the sun that touched it earlier. The warmth reminds her that the day held more than the difficult moments she is replaying. She closes her eyes and listens. Not to the noises outside the car. Not to the list still unfinished in her mind. She listens to the rhythm hiding underneath the tension. The subtle thud of her heartbeat. The breath she has not yet deepened. The quiet plea of her own spirit asking to be met before she moves forward.
In the faint hush of the parking lot, she brings her attention to her hands. They are still wrapped around the steering wheel, stiff with the kind of grip she holds when she is trying to get through rather than move with. She loosens her fingers one at a time. The release feels unfamiliar. Vulnerable. Necessary. Her palms open and rest gently against her legs. The shift is small, hardly visible, yet something inside her eases as if the smallest door has opened.
She breathes in through her nose, slow and careful. The breath stays high at first, thin and tight near the collarbones. She does not force it lower. She only notices. That is how Maria moves. Through noticing. Through presence. Through allowing the breath to soften the body instead of pushing the body to match the breath. She lingers in that first inhale until it ends on its own. Then she releases it, long and unhurried, letting it fall from her chest like a weight she no longer needs to hold.
A cool thread of air slips through the cracked window. It touches her cheek with the gentleness she has not offered herself all day. She turns her attention to that sensation and lets it settle her. The world outside does not quiet. Cars pass in steady rhythms. Voices drift from across the lot. Somewhere in the distance, a door closes with a dull thud. Life continues without slowing. Yet inside this car, something fragile begins to shift. She feels her breath return to her in a more honest way.
She takes another inhale. This one reaches deeper. Down to the bottom of her ribs. Down to the place where exhaustion has been hiding. When she releases the breath, her shoulders fall by a small but significant inch. She had not realized how high they had been held until now. Tension does not vanish all at once. It unravels in tiny strands. And these strands begin to loosen the moment she gives herself permission to pause.
Her thoughts try to rise again, to claim the space she is creating. They bring back the unfinished conversations, the difficult decision she postponed, the pressure she carried through every hour. She watches them come. She watches them gather. She does not follow them. She let herself follow them all day, and they led her into a place where she could not breathe. Now she chooses a different direction, one breath at a time.
She opens her eyes and looks through the windshield. The parking lot lights cast long shapes across the pavement. A faint reflection of herself looks back in the glass. There is something softer in her expression now. Something more aware. The breath she just took has changed the angle of her entire evening. She recognizes it as the beginning of a return. A return to her center, not by effort, but by presence.
Her chest expands again. The breath travels farther, reaching the space beneath her sternum. This is where she usually feels the first sign of overwhelm. A tightening. A quick pull inward. Tonight, that place feels different. Not open, but opening. The breath creates a small pocket of space inside her. Not enough to hold everything she carries, but enough to hold this moment without collapsing under it.
She thinks of how often she has moved from one demand to the next without stopping to feel the impact of any of them. She thinks of the way she has tried to outrun her own exhaustion, believing that momentum would save her from sinking. It never did. It only pulled her farther from the quiet she needed. In this small car, in a half empty parking lot, she finds the truth she has avoided all day. She cannot keep living from urgency. She cannot keep ignoring the signals her body sends.
She brings her hand to her chest, letting her fingertips rest lightly against her skin. The contact feels grounding. Honest. Human. Her breath meets her hand with a gentle lift. This simple connection reminds her that she is more than her responsibilities. She is a person who needs space to recover. A person who deserves moments of stillness. A person whose inner world matters as much as the demands she meets on the outside.
Another breath enters her body. It moves slowly, with intention. She lets it widen her ribs, soften her shoulders, and loosen the edges of her posture. She exhales and feels her whole being settle deeper into the seat. The day will not rewrite itself. The stress will not disappear in one pause. But she no longer expects it to. She only expects herself to meet this moment with care.
The phone in her bag vibrates again. This time she does not flinch. She does not rush to reach it. She allows it to be background sound. The world will ask for her when she steps outside this car. Right now, she is asking for herself. Another inhale. Deeper now. It carries a calm she recognizes. A calm that feels like returning home after drifting too far away.
She stays here for a few more breaths. Long, honest breaths. Each one creates another inch of space inside her. Each one restores a piece of her capacity. The tightness in her temples softens. The pressure around her ribs eases. She no longer feels chased by the hours behind her. She feels held by the moment she is in.
The evening waits outside her door. The light is shifting. The air is cooler. She knows she still needs to walk inside and face whatever the rest of the night holds. A light breeze slips through the crack in the door as she reaches for the handle, brushing across her arm with a soft reminder that the world is gentler than the day she carried.
She opens the door and steps into the evening. The air touches her skin with a gentleness she can finally feel. She moves with a slower stride. Not heavy. Not rushed. Present. The space she created inside the car moves with her, as if a pocket of calm is following each step.
The Truth Beneath
Stillness does not always arrive when the world grows quiet. It often arrives when you choose to pause long enough to feel your own breath again. A small moment of presence can loosen the tight places in your body and soften the weight you carry. The day may not change, yet your relationship to it does. When you let yourself breathe space into the moment, you create space inside yourself. And that space becomes strength you can return to again and again.
Stories written in the quiet hours.
Derek Wolf.
“The Truth Beneath” Links to add to the bottom of stories